I will try to remain anonymous in this blog. I do not dream of becoming popular. Creating the total opposite of me is not an easy task. Although I found a profound interest in things I never care to explore or dwell into, somehow I can already vision how these new interests won’t stay for long.

Sticking to my words is like having a trip to the moon, which is unlikely. Motivation, determination to me do not always sustain for a long period of time. It gets blurry and confusing and one moment I wish I had never hold on to any of those. Temptation is one thing that kills my motivation and determination. Be it to lose extra inches on my hips, or to abstain my self from having the casual meeting with him, him and the other him. There you go.

I am scared. Scared of letting go of everything. Avoiding is not the best option. Home does not give me peace. Work is stressing. The only guy I ever love has turned his back on me. Reverting might be too late. But I keep asking my self, do I still have the chance?